It Happens Every Time

I am a coffee junkie! And inevitably I am going to give into an offer for a after dinner coffee and now it is late... and getting later. SO here I am still up and watching "Days of Thunder." I find that very funny. Who can beat a Nascar movie at midnight? I am looking for a spiritual lesson for the post so I have to mention the obvious. Quoting Paul "I have run the race...." (this has to be the dorkiest post ever!)

Ode to a New Year

I just want to say "Yay" to a new year. So looking forward to the start of a new year. I love the newness I feel and the new found freedom that I have been able to experience before Christmas..... I haven't been able to finish today's blog due to so many interuptions so I will have to try again another day. FREEDOM to wait for the right time!!

So blessed!

Thirteen years ago the Lord gave me an assignment that I did not know the depths of nor the impact of. He called me to be a mother. I only knew so much in theory, of course. Oh how did I know what it would demand from me and at the same time bless me. In my profile I state the I am a women I never thought I could be. Yes I had wishes, however, they were not expectations. They were hopes and not fulfillments. I had dreams that I never thought would amount to much of anything. Who would think I could be blessed in such a way. Only God!

My Lainey is the fulfillment of a promise. She is they reason I have come to expect and not just wish. She is the reminder that the demands on me are blessings. Emptying of oneself to be filled by the Lord. What a pleasure that has become!

So, that being said Todd and I were able to bless Lainey's birthday with a trip to Chicago. And it really allowed her and me to deepen our relationship, to enjoy each other's company.

Get this!

I got a new book from the library. A Christian novel called "Redemption." The other night I was reading the first chapter about the woman finding out her husband was having an affair. He didn't even come to her when he was clearly busted. He didn't beg for forgiveness. He told her he didn't want to be married anymore.....I fell asleep while reading and when Todd got home, I was mad at him. Oops! I might need another visit to the library.

WOW! I am tired!

Ok... I have to admit that there are so many moving parts in my life I am very concerned that I am going to lose something, or for that matter, someone. I am ready for a break but I don't see that happening. So I will press on and wait for the Lord. He says that his burden is light and I can come to Him and He will give me rest. So tonight that is where I am heading...into the arms of my Savior... leaning on His everlasting arms!

My Response is My Responsibility

Whatever Wednesday

This is the biggest "Whatever" Wednesday ever. I feel so out of sorts it is crazy. Last night I slept great (thanks to Nyquil). Then I went running and that was hard! The weather was so humid I was dripping. I guess Nyquil at night and running early 6 a.m. don't do well together. I thought I was going to have to sit down in a someone's yard to take a break! The whole time I was telling the Lord that I didn't have enough to make it through the next week of nightly meetings and daily teachings and chores and life. "I guess you, Lord, are going to have to show up for me."
Get back to the house and Todd is asleep on couch with Em who had a bad dream so I go to bedroom and turn on TV. Commercials, commercials, commercials!!! Then I find "Gene Simmon's Family Jewels" Sweet way to start the day! Bizarrish episode!
I was about to watch my second episode when Todd stumbled in from den and I reacted like I was a 12 year old child watching something I shouldn't. Quickly changed the channel and guess where it landed! That's right...Beth Moore!

How about that for divine intervention? And guess what her subject was? Praise in the midst of circumstances that are not changing! Acts 16 Paul and Silas in jail! Basically to sum up the first two hours of my Whatever Wednesday, God not only wants to change my life, He wants to change my day. My day can change with a change of attitude. But I ask, what if I like to hold my stubborn attitude. What if I don't want it to change. I just want to keep it. Pout and whine. Pout and whine!! ....But it would be such a waste! A waste of time and a waste of memories. A waste of a day that I can't get back.

When I look back to all my wasted years of fear, worry and pride, it makes me angry that I would let even one more be robbed from me, my family and my King. I haven't been jailed nor flogged. I have a husband who is in love with me. Kids that love me. And a Savior that sings over me. So it may begin with a hum, but even so I will begin to praise. Let the flowing waters of praise stir my soul!!

Praise God from whom all blessings flow.

Praise Him, all creatures here below.

Praise Him above ye heavenly hosts.

Praise Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.